Something... Changes...

After today, I mean on 23rd May 2020, around more than half of my age is subtracting. I mean minus 35, means 35 years completed (Whatever). such a huge number it is boss !! Girls don't share the age but I do. What's wrong in it? Why feel shy? I am not a teenager and neither do I want to act like that. I am now 35 years old, I still don't feel like that though. This comes with a responsibility to act like a mature person. I am never sorry for this number, and yes this number taught a lot.

I do not remember anything of the moment when I was born at 6 am on the 23rd day of May 1985. Maybe the people around my mother felt a burst of happiness and joy. Mother took a sigh of relief after a hell lot of pain. and I opened my eyes. What's new? Every child has the same process of arrival on this earth. (Just there is a difference of beliefs, opinions, expressions and Scenarios)

Eventually, you get to learn many things. Scrolling, Walking, Eating, Laughing, people you know, people you don't know, and so on....

And the process of learning never stops. You go to school, college, and life goes on.

Every moment you live like you are the owner of that moment and it passes just like a blink.

Kartik, my partner in life, always mentions (As #Steve #Jobs included in his speech too) that you can connect the dots backward and not forward.  So I thought let's see what I can connect.

It is said, life teaches you a lot. But you only can learn. Sometimes you rebel, sometimes you laugh. Sometimes you Cry, Sometimes you fight, Sometimes you are very Positive, Sometimes terribly Negative and so many sometimes feelings. Every time you do something to it. knowingly unknowingly. One day you realize that this was not meant to be mine. That moment, the person, the situation(and you stop there). you gain many things and lose too. Few or many things don't even matter to you, cause you are that ignorant. But actually, a few things change you. You never know what that change will be. But it will. In the trip of life you meet people, people, and people. You will interact with more people and you will get to know people (Possibly or maybe never).

Anyways, seen, heard or experienced a lot, People like to judge other people. “They say” is the most important thing somehow. but these people are we, that they do not even realize. at one point you realize that you judged many and many judged you. Again what matters is, what you feel for yourself. if you are ready to be judged and disturbed then your life is screwed totally. I faced it a lot and when I realized how depressing it is, I stopped (just speak up or leave). I stopped getting tensed with the feeling that somebody may judge me. you know what it brings? It brings life to you. and you start taking your decisions.

One day you know the fact that your life is yours and others too have a life, then you understand one thing  “Carpe diem” means “Seize the day”. I fail in this always. But at least I give it a try now. And yes, to give a try to this you have to face many things before and come out of that. especially losses and disappointments.

Simple funda to understand this is very simple, that Good things don’t come easy. but at least I can make a path for it though. In the end, I am the only responsible person in my life. Not my job, not the people who made me feel bad and disappointed for many things. They were doing their jobs as per their nature and character. I must understand one thing that I must Take care of my health early. cause this will pay me. I can only work and give myself a secure life after a particular age if I live till then. But one condition, my work should remain my hobby so that I can enjoy it but no one should take advantage of it. I may not work for money but I must not settle for what not I meant for. I must value myself.  Like my parents, I may not be able to secure so many things. But surely dignity and selfless happiness will.

This dignity and selfless happiness will make every moment count. Cause I will be able to enjoy everything that I am doing and involved in. and after all making every moment count means a lot. You live in that, then why waste them. If you are able to make it count, you will surely be able to live and let others live. Isn’t it funny? You are not able to see the happiness of others, why? Because you are not happy. Simple !! Once you find peace and Happiness for self, the happiness of others becomes a reason to be happier. This is how one can live and let others live. 

Living your life with all your will makes you flexible with your goals. Most of the time you get hurt when you are unable to reach your goals. Why, because you are not ready to be flexible. But once you opt for life, you can.

My birthday is my favorite day. I say this and mean it. I always want to do something special with it. I don't remember the day I was born but I feel that each birthday should have some memory or other. This added value in the number is also adding value to my experiences and I am happy that I am alive. Who lives, that one can have stories to live after too.

A scientific calculation can be a definition for life, “For every action, there’s an equal opposite reaction” isn't it? This Birthday I am keeping in my mind for a lifetime. It is like tying a knot to remind myself that whatever I will do will come back to me. And whatever others will do it go back to them. So, I need not require to think about them but myself, Big Yes !! 

I may not connect the dots but I will love to live with all my rules and regulations of happiness. Birthday can become happy when I feel happy that I am born. I will change with every shock, loss, gain, age, and so on … but will keep in mind that Something Changes, Always Changes, and will keep on Changing. !!